Swimming in Molasses--OR--Am I Just Too Pushy?

I have never felt like I needed to be The Boss. I can follow as well as lead.
I think.

See, I'm involved in several projects. One, the zombie movie that was rescheduled, is a project that I now have much more responsibility. I am the producer! And the director of the show thinks highly of me. I think highly of him. I've offered my help and he has gratefully and graciously accepted and welcomed it. The Zombie Movie will Rock!

But the show I'm in now, ACC, well, I stepped in last Thursday at the first music rehearsal because it was basically a train wreck. Please understand, I am not a musical genius. I can sing. I've had some training. I know how to work with other people to get them excited and working as a group. I didn't want to completely walk over the music director of the show last Thursday night. But the show was in peril of drowning and I gave it my best shot of Jennifer Style CPR.

I have fretted that I was just too pushy. I wasn't that worried about the music director. She has been sadly put into a job she can't do. Period. But I worried horribly that the show's director would be mad that #1 I pretty much took over (the director wasn't there), and #2 that when I told her it was a train wreck, she'd think I was a complaining diva loser.

Fortunately, I spoke with the director tonight and she was grateful for my feedback.
<Wiping forehead>
Phew!

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Me as Singing Diva

I might be a diva about singing. It's not that I think I shouldn't sing loudly. I want to. It's fun. But last night at music rehearsal, I sang and sang and sang so loudly because nobody else knew what they were doing. I could have been perceived as a diva. I know! And I find them so abhorrent!

I've never considered myself very knowledgeable about singing--I've picked up some ideas here and there. And I find myself zombie singing all the time (especially in church), in that I don't enunciate at times, I take breaths when I shouldn't.

I am now thinking, when dealing with singers who don't know what they're doing, if I were the music director, I'd give them a few tips, give them the notes, give them where I want them to breathe and call it good. We have less than 2 1/2 weeks til performance and nobody knows nuthin'. Yipes.

Am I this controlling? Or is it that I want to help and just like to support others?

Life lessons, my friends. Life lessons.

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